To Quote Winnie the Pooh, "Oh, bother...!"

Every, every time the boys leave I just ache from missing them. Why do I do that? It's not like I'll never see them again. And there is an immediate sense of peace and relief as well as the despair. I am grateful that the chaos and cacophony is replaced by peace and quiet. But there is such a hole. Big, old, silent hole! Big hole!

Maybe it's my depression kicking in each time or maybe it's just normal. Though I've found that normalacy is not usually anything I suffer from. I need to eat something and see if that makes me feel better. Then I can get ready for church and that will probably bore me into placidness. ;o) Sorry, but sometimes it does. Especially on the first Sunday of the month. I don't relish fast Sunday. Sorry again to those of you who get all inspired and rejuvenated by the testimonies. (Maybe it's because I never can fast. If you want to see pyscho just see me without any food for 24 hours.) It just doesn't do much for me usually. I'm a sinner and a heretic, I know.

Later this afternoon is the Super Bowl. And I am watching it, Sunday or no. Another heretical act. I want the Colts and it better be a good game to get me out of this slump. Maybe I need medication. I stopped taking the prozac because I just didn't think it was working any more. It seemed to just exaserbate my nutsiness.

I apologize for the maudlin musings, the mummerings, and the psychosis. Probably this good-things-missing salad will do the trick. No glazed walnuts, no scrumptious bleu or feta cheese crumbles, no grilled chicken or cranberry garnish...Diet dressing, lettuce, and cottage cheese with maybe a side of fresh pineapple. Hold yourself back. I know it sounds tempting but it's all mine. I ain't sharin' this delicacy with nobody!! Stand away from the plate, ladies,  and let me at this tasty treat.

Oh, bother!! I just hate me when I get this way.

P.S. Dang, what happened to blogger spell check? I look like a fool on here because I'm a horrible speller, am too lazy to go search in a dictionary, and should know how to spell words or not use them. Amen!